INTERACTION?

So, I woke up late today and missed my class. When I call my friend, they say they are with her group and ask me to come along. When I reach there, they say they are going out with them to Subang. What should I response to such thing? Go? Not go?.. ya, I finally decide I will stay at IMU and just do whatever crape I can. Haha.... what I actually want to achieve?.. I risk myself and sort of argue with her that night and risk myself again to tell my group to unite. When they are uniting, I just cannot make the first move. I JUST CANNOT!!!!  WTH am I actually doing now? ...... when my friend ask me to go out I am like keep repeating MOVE  in my mind....OMG, JUST MOVE!!! But then when I saw her walk passed , I back off...I just back off...I really donna who to do now?...I am the one who encourage my group to unite, but when time come , I just back off... felt so sorry to my friends now, I think they are actually uniting and create some chance for me to go toward her. Sorry, I think I just let them disappointed.  I felt so disappointed to myself too. I keep on promise myself that I will go to her but I think that day will never come, that day will not occur, that day will only appear in the past not now, the day we last talk just end here.


Walk Away
I watch you walk away from me
The tears in my heart start to fall
I ask myself how did we lose it all
For the first time, I had no words to you
For the first time, I am confuse to you
For the first time, I do not know what am I doing
I cling to old memories
And I watch you walk away
Maybe I just don't want to let us walk away
Walk to separate direction
But inside I know I must
As the situation don't allow
My heart's whimpering with pain
To watch you walk away
But it's my mind I trust
Sometimes, there's confusion around me
Sometimes, there's a pain in my heart
Sometimes, there's numbness in my feeling
But looking you walk away
I just fell apart
If only I could handle it
And bear to just say
Will I use my breath and say
Don't walk away???