EXPRESSION

Yesterday, when everyone was talking about the due date for ipp assigment.....i remembered when i checked the module guide , it stated the due date is at 12 april 2015 ..tat means it was due this sunday....this is the reason why i sort of rushing to meet the deadline.....when we are all discusing abt the deadline, she finally spoke up and said the actual due date is on 30 april 2015 and not 14 april 2015 to another course mates just sitting next to me with a loud sound but polite way...ok, well, i can hear it caus i am not a deaf....then i feel surprise for the sudden change of due date caus i din realize it...so , to double comfirm, i turn my head and ask her," are you comfirm is at 30 april 2015?"...she reply me" yalar, u din check the elearn just down there in the grouping list!!" wth a very frautrated face....ok, dude, fst i just wan to comfirm the due date only!!!! I am not picking a fight with you, don show me that stupid face....u are a sort of class rep, don treat your coursemate so unfairly( u always unfair, so NVM).....

The second incidence during lab.....when we are doing calculation..ok, damn it, i know u r smart..u know almost everything...and i admit, i use senior reference caus i really donno how to do...when me and my friend sort of like discussing the method of doing calculation...i know u know to do and finish it earlier...and i know u actually know the senior calculation is not the answer for the practical( ok, who donno it when we are copying, that y we are discusing the calculation, if the calculation is correct, nobody is discusing abt it)...u just keep on repeat to yr friends, " don follow senior d calculation because the senior the calculation not same as us" for like almost 5 times in front of me wth yr friends.....i mean like, ok, can u stop saying?..i know i am stupid, but then no need to like repeating my stupidity in front of yr friend!!

U ARE SMART!!BUT THEN ATTITUDE SUCKS....OVERALL, ATTITUDE STILL MATTER!!

Nightmares 2

These few nights, i cannot slept well in the night...kept on having nightmares 3 nights in straight....what had happen to me?...am i thinking too much about something i should't worry about it.....my nightmares have the same contents ..betray and abandon by friends...hope that these kind of nightmare can eventually stop..i guess i am just too sensitive about it.....

The grouping list for IPP had been released..i am in the same group with her again!!! Oh gosh, imu, can u just stop treating me like that....this time is assigment!!!...i have phobia of doing assigment with her..last year, we had a argument in bio assigment...without stopped by S, i think i will just directly called her and scolded her non stop...the situation was when i asked her to send the soft copy to the lecturer in class, she said okay and pls reminded her at night as she scared she will forgot about it...the due date for the submitting of soft copy is at 12 midnight....at about 9pm, i whatapps her and she din replied for almost 2 hrs...feeling frautrated, i decided to send the copy to the lecturer by myself to prevent we overpassed the deadline ...at about 1030pm, she just screenshot to me a picture  that proved that she already sent....feeling angry that she din even explain what going on, i just type "can you pls always open yr whatapps frequently !!!"...n she just replied those craps  that make you feel like it is my own fault...the next morning, when she reach uni, she say she was angry last night...i am like WHAT THE HELL r u angrying??...i am the one who have the every right to angry in this matter.....so, how am i going to do assigment with her these time?..i have no interested to do assigment with her...do i need to pretend all time?...ya, i should pretend like i actually like to do assigment with her to prevent any conflictions this time.....sad life

LIFE IS FULL OF PRETENDING WITH A SMILLING MASK !!😧

Angel

Angel falling from heaven straight into my house...yesterday, my family and i brought back a labrador retriver from dog shelter....she is cute and with golden colour fur....she is huge in size too..whenever i touch her, she will knock me to the ground using her fat body....after long time of consideration, we finally name her as angel....magic, the poodle, likes her very much too..haha..maybe he is excited for having a girlfriend which is so beautiful....Angel is magic protector too..whenever we slap magic for being naughty and bully Angel, she block us and prevent us to slap magic...Magic smile all time when he saw Angel running around in the house and he eventually run with her too...both of them stick together like glue all the time....we all love both of them very much and

WELCOME HOME, ANGEL!!!😍😍😍

MASK

I was once sad and lonely

Having nobody to comfort me

so, i wore a mask that always smiled

to hide my feelings behind a lie.

Nobody could hear my cries at night

For i designed my mask to hide the lies

Nobody cound see the pain i was feeling

For i designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the tears

And behind all the comfort were the fears.

Everything ypu think you see,

wasn't everything there was to me.

Day by day

i was slowly dying.

i couldn't go on,

There was something missing.

Until now i am still searchinh

For the thing that i will stop my crying

For someone who i will erase my fears

For the person who will wipe my tears

But till then i will keep on smilling

Hiding behind this mask i am wearing

Hoping one day i can smile

Till then, i will be here..Waiting.

KINDNESS

I believe the random act of kindness is a selfless attitude toward other people that is either stranger or close friend by sacrifising yourself...however, it is so hard to be kind to a person that you only know for like less than a month....but this person can really did it by sacrifising herself to other people...so, the story start with when our class rep post a fb post about mpu hour in the fb group...to claim the mpu hour, we need to fight the limited places for sub community...the upper the blank position you wrote your name, the higher chance you will get the position...in public relation position, they need min of 50 people...when she wrote her name she was positioned at 51 which i felt that it was not a total secured position to become sub con...after that, when i was looking at the list, i suddenly found out that position 35 was blank maybe because the person who wrote it just gave up the position already..so, i immediately whatapps her and told her this...i was expecting some "yeah, pls write my name in that blank"....but i was totally wrong...she replied me" pls put XX name in that position because she is at the back of me"..i felt shock that time!!! If she is positioned at 35, she will definitely get to become sub con..but she gave it to other people that is located behind her.....seriously like her attitude very much...really good to have her to become a friend...

Be kind to other because the truest greatness lies in being KIND!!!☺

NIGHTMARE

this morning, i woke up with a nightmare...i dreamed that i was still in the group..suffering in their ignorance...i saw her, standing in front of me and look at me liked i was a stranger...after that, she just walked away, left me in the same position....her eyes told me that please don't come near me, i do not know you at all and her attitude was i do not friends with people that was moderate in acedemic ....i was so suffer and i even screamed in the dream....after that, i opened my eyes and woke up......staring at the celling ,knowing that i was not in that group anymore and that was just a dream really comfort me a lot...this nightmare let me understand that i had made the correct choice to leave the group and  find new friends....if i am still in that group, who knows what will happen to me in future...maybe one day i will just collapse as i cannot endure them anymore...Right choice had been made in the end!!

NEW FRIENDS!!

So, i am actually a wierd type of person that does not like selfie at all..but then when i am surrounded by these 8 friends...oo...the selfie word is like in everywhere...before lab practical session..all people are like, hey , we do not have a lab coat selfie...so this wat causes all the photo in below

let me introduce all of them

1. Winnie, the big boss

2. Shu chien , the beauty

3. Julie, the most active

4.  Hui Qing, the Ave Maria

5. Andrea, the Andrew

6. Gurpreet, the Garfield

7. Hui En, the kind-hearted

8. Jo Thien, the sweetest

9. Me, the bully!!!..haha

AGAIN??

after i left the group, everyone is like keep on asking me the same question which is why do you leave the group? ..i answer is just...oo, they are not the type of close friends i want to be with but then they are all good and very hardworking people, so i guess that is my own personal problem and is not their problem at all...i answer that question is like almost 50 times...i thought that as time pass, all people will forget the thing and eventually stop asking the same question as i don't feel like answer to at all...however after like almost 1 month had passed, when i went and brought food from a aunty hawker during lunch time today, she asked me" where is your tall friend?"...suddenly, i felt really pissed off with that question..n i just answered' oo, we broke already"with a smiling and polite way and i actually introduced her my new friends and say " see, these are all my new friends"....the aunty just said, "how do you both end up like this, last time when i saw you and her, you both are actually very good friend"...suddenly, i just silent for a few second...ya, that is also the same question i am thinking for the past 2 weeks....and my only answer is " TIME CAN CHANGE A RELATIONSHIP"...after that, the aunty smile back to me and say " yes, this is true"....

" THINGS CHANGE. AND FRIENDS LEAVE. BUT LIFE DOESN'T STOP FOR ANYBODY....JUST MOVE ON"