so finally I am going to graduate soon. Feel like there a lot to think but I donno which one to start from. First, before graduating, I had knew a few good friends and it sad to leave them because we r ending our course soon. Yesterday was the last day of school in imu and I am actually the presenter. I feel that times actually flies and when I saw everyone face in front of me I was thinking maybe this is the last time I will see them in my life. Thks is the last time BP115 will gather as a whole. Even though I don’t really know each and everyone but it still sad to know that we are splitting and going towards the next chapter of life. Yesterday was also my final time to have a surprise celebration to my friend. We went for dinner and singing K. Looking at her face I felt sad. I am a special kind of people and sometimes I need to suppress the feeling to not approach her. It’s sad to know that soon I am not going to meet her. It’s actually good for her to leave me sooner because I felt that I am very hazardous to her. It’s hard to control my feeling and I don’t know when I will lost control of it. Leaving is the best options for both of us but it hurts me like hell. I hope some days she can meet someone that was meant for her and I am sorry that I had dragged you for a small period of time. I will take this secret into my grave and I will let her go by not telling her anything. Leaving her and saw a smile on her face is all I want to get. I am truly sorry that I am not the one that have the qualifications for her. Not for anyone in this world. I am just a freak with a abnormal thoughts. I hate to have this thoughts and I hate to admit it. But in actual life I am just a normal human where suppressing my feeling is a very hard, sad and hurtful things to do. I am sorry to have this thought and I hope that u will never know about it. Let’s just graduate peacefully and then walk in separate ways.
Time to leave the ivory tower
We shall climb higher and look furtherWe're leaving our salad days behind
and start chasing our dreams ahead
Give an embrace to the unknown future
Opportunities are always hidden in dangers
Lift our head and spread our wings
To touch the sky and reach the stars
The moments we spent together
The memories I'll always hold Would it take long to recognise meIf we happened to meet after years?
