Angel Vs Devil

today i had a great day with j. Although the activity was very boring but then this was the first time we both we had outing. There was a delay of the bus when we wanted to return back to imu and j said she cannot wait until the delay time cause she will be late to dinner. Together, both of us and another friends sit taxi back to uni. i accompanied her in uni until her mum came and fetch her.  you must be asking why i need to accompanied her back to j although i am not rushing of time. The answer is i think as a friend, i should not leave her alone if i have the time to accompany her. Just like last time, i accompany y back to her vista in late of night. 

however, when a friendship started to fade, you will be asking why i need to spend so much time in friendship if i know it will soon end. it was such a waste of time to spend time to a people you know that will leaving soon. My answer is I don't know. sometimes you just don't know you need to care just like your angel fighting with your devil side.

Angel Vs Devil

My devil whispers, 

Into my ear,

'Let the hatred consume you'

'Ignite the fire in your heart'

My devil smiles warmly,

Her face so soft and kind

Telling me to learn to immerse myself

Into the cruelty of human kind.

My angel says

'Don't listen to her'

'The path she holds'

'Is full of sin'

My angel smiles softly with caring

She holds her arms out wide, 

Telling me it always okay to be wrong

You just need to be the best of yourselves.

Should i chose the devil,

And be warmed by her flame?

Should i choose the angel,

And feel the light again?

The angel and the devil,

Which one do i choose

The darkness or the light,

what would you decide to do?

"when memory never fade, the past can poison the present"

FLASHBACK

so, maybe too much coffee will causes a person brain to have illusion especially when you are daydreaming in a very boring class. After having second cups of coffee, my mind start to create scenes although my eyes are still focusing on d lecture slides. i see myself sitting and she is giving her first presentation. She is so nervous and keep on looking at me and i try to use my eyes to convince her that she actually do a great job. After that, the scene change, we both sit beside each other in different classroom, 1.08, 1.09, 1.03A and basement, she smile to me while sitting beside me. Then, the scene change to uni canteen and she is eating in front of me. Those are good memories in the past. unfortunately, the scene change to a total opposite way when it change to the day she say she want to join those smart one while doing math assignment, the day we argue about the submission of bio assignment, the day she reject the outing, the day she ignore me totally, the day we sort of like arguing in the phone and finally the day we go on in two separate ways. In the end, i lie down on the table.

The Angel's Weep

i remember the time not long ago

when we laughed and shared it all

We were the friends

or at least that's what i thought

i often wonder why friendships end

what happens to sever the tie

how can someone once so close

just wave you off with a goodbye

i must have been lacking

i must have been wrong

i was't the friend to you

that you were to me all along.

i thought i was loyal

i know i was true

but something went wrong

Now's there is nothing left to say

A friendship lost 

is a very sad thing

The angels weep instead of sing.